Stand Alone

i stand alone...
i stand alone in the darkness of night
i look around and there's no one in sight
i tilt my head and look up to the sky
i ask myself a question " who am i ? "
i get these feeling and these thoughts and they tear
me up inside
i run and run but there seems to be nowhere to hide
i run to the woods and hide behind a tree
i hope there's no one around who can see
the pains is so intense it's tearing me up inside
i drop to my knees and begin to cry
i raise my head and try to pray
but my mouth can't find the words my heart wants to say
give me the strength to make it through the night
because the lord knows i'm too tired to fight
if you read this try to understand
it doesn't matter to if your a woman or a man
everyone has problems and everyone has pain
everyone hurts just the same

remembered

a poem trying to understand why my Grandma died. Very deep and was hard to write.

i remember you
everyday i sit and wonder why
the reason why you had to die
i wish you would have come to me
i know it happened but i still find it hard to
believe
i think about you night and day
there are so many things i want to say
we had our goodtimes and we had bad
when i think about them it makes me sad
it also brings a smile to my face
when i think about those happy days
you were always there when i needed you
for each other there wasn't anything we wouldn't do
when i needed you, you were there
the happy times that we shared
i love you my grandma
and i can say one was always there for the
other
although sometimes we had our problems our
love would never part
i just want you to know your always in my mind and
heart
for my loving grandma who i will always love
who is now in heaven with God above

i miss him very much...

In memorial..

Grandma, N.P.
(14 august 1921 - 20 march 2009)

Grandma,
It is so hard to live the world without you...
your smile, your laugh, your courage, and your spirit will always
inspired us...
those we cherish will always live on in memories...
our prayer will always be with you...
for we believe that you are in heaven...
thank you for the love that we have shared together...

I Could

I could write you a letter,
But what would it say?
Could it make things better?
Would it make everything okay?

I could write you a song,
Full of love hope and grace.
Would you tell me what went wrong?
Could you say it to my face?

I could make a telephone call,
And listen as you cried
But i would not let you fall,
And if you did, we'd both know i tried.

I could make the world go away,
But would that be what you like?
You would miss the golden sunrays
You would miss the moonlight.

I could stop all this pain,
Bring it all to an end,
The tears would fall like rain,
On the shoulder of a dear friend.

Do not Stand

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there.
I do not sleep

I am a thousand winds that swiftly blow.
I am the diamond glint
on newly fallen snow.
I am the sunlight
on ripened grain.
I am the soft and gentle autumn rain

When you wake from sleep in the early morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft, starlight at night.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there.
I do not sleep.

Dear God

DEAR GOD,
I AM THANKFUL TO YOU FOR:
YOUR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE YOU HAVE SHOWN ME
YOUR GREAT MERCY YOU HAVE GIVEN ME
YOUR LOVING COMFORT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME
YOUR UNDYING FORGIVENESS YOU HAVE BESTOWED UPON ME YOUR GIFT OF
YOUR ONLY SON SO THAT I CAN COME TO YOU
YOUR MANY MIRACLES YOU HAVE GIVEN ME
YOUR TRUE WORDS THAT HELP COMFORT, GUIDE AND GIVE ME STRENGTH THROUGH MY LIFE YOUR TEACHINGS THAT TEACH ME HOW TO LOVE, FORGIVE, AND LIVE
YOUR GIFT OF PEACE YOU HAVE GIVEN MY SPIRIT
YOUR BLESSING OF FAMILY AND FRIENDS
AMEN.

Love On The Internet

though i wasn't looking for anyone new,
one day i got e-mail and in it was you.
charming, sensitive, and so debbonair,
i strongly resisted it go anywhere.

but letters and stories captured my heart,
filled me with passion almost from the start.
love on the internet, how could it be?
these things just don't happen to people like me.

but doves and butterflies flew into our lives,
carrying messages we could not deny.
each person has meaning and love to express,
and we could deny our hearts nothing less.

it's a beautiful love that has grown between us,
something beyond any words we discuss.
much deeper than LOL, cyber kisses and such,
far down to our souls, beyond human touch.

my love's not confined by what it can see,
i feel you, i taste you, i experience your dream.
close my eyes, and i envision what in my heart i can hear,
"love knows no boundaries, no distance, no fear."

it's the soul that captures God's love in a way
that eternally melts hearts together to stay.
fused and sealed forever as one,
love has it's way and new life is begun.