Depressed

Stop Breathing

Tears of fear streaming
Words of sorrow screaming
Emotions live on killing
What’s the point in believing?
Life has no meaning
Dreams are only teasing
I can’t take all the deceiving
I want to stop breathing
There’s no point in living
I start crying
I try praying
Again, nobody’s listening
Now I’m straying
I turn and start running
Now I’m looking
For a way out of thinking
Please stop me from breathing
I’m no longer believing
I’m remembering
How no one was listening
Tears of fear and sorrow streaming
Emotions screaming
Words and thought killing
What’s the point in believing?
I want to stop breathing

Understanding of Love

Love is love,
No more
No less

Love is frail
Yet it is strong
Never fails

Love is gentle
So secure
That we can surrender

Love is complete
Everyone is in need
There is no need to compete

Love is not blind
It is balanced
Without crossing the line

Love is kind
It is meant to bind
It is mine...

Back

looking..

looking back on my life, and wondering if there's anything i would change
would i change anything at all or would it remain the same
i think we've all done things we regret
some we will never forget
i think we all could've done better if we tried
i know we all told little white lies
i wish i would have spent more time with the ones i love
some are now gone and are now in heaven with the one above
it's things like that, that put you back on track
because now you realize you can't have that back
as i look back i feel so bad
i should've treasured and took advantage of the time we had
i feel so alone and cold
sometimes i feel as if i might explode
i hate feeling this way inside
it makes me just wanna drop to my knees and cry
as i write this and fighting back the tears
treat everyone right and hold them near
so looking back on my life is there anything i would change
well i can tell you things wouldn't be the same

Lonely

what is life without a friend
it's a highway with no end
what's a child without a smile
come and listen for a while

what is faith without believe
or a maple with no leaves
a treasure island you can't find
a great picture when you're blind

why are we never statisfied
doin' all
doin' all the things we do
why are we standing in the rain
can't you see
it is all for you and me

what's a house without a roof
and a good friend with no truth
what's a mother with no child
or a father with no time

what is priest who's feeling lies
what's a guardian with no eyes
what is a man without a view
take an oath wich in untrue

why are we never statisfied
doin' all
doin' all the things we do
why are we talking all this pain
can't you see
it is all for you and me

look at all those lonely people
i still wonder where they go
look at all those fancy people
they all seems to really know
something, we don't know

Stand Alone

i stand alone...
i stand alone in the darkness of night
i look around and there's no one in sight
i tilt my head and look up to the sky
i ask myself a question " who am i ? "
i get these feeling and these thoughts and they tear
me up inside
i run and run but there seems to be nowhere to hide
i run to the woods and hide behind a tree
i hope there's no one around who can see
the pains is so intense it's tearing me up inside
i drop to my knees and begin to cry
i raise my head and try to pray
but my mouth can't find the words my heart wants to say
give me the strength to make it through the night
because the lord knows i'm too tired to fight
if you read this try to understand
it doesn't matter to if your a woman or a man
everyone has problems and everyone has pain
everyone hurts just the same

remembered

a poem trying to understand why my Grandma died. Very deep and was hard to write.

i remember you
everyday i sit and wonder why
the reason why you had to die
i wish you would have come to me
i know it happened but i still find it hard to
believe
i think about you night and day
there are so many things i want to say
we had our goodtimes and we had bad
when i think about them it makes me sad
it also brings a smile to my face
when i think about those happy days
you were always there when i needed you
for each other there wasn't anything we wouldn't do
when i needed you, you were there
the happy times that we shared
i love you my grandma
and i can say one was always there for the
other
although sometimes we had our problems our
love would never part
i just want you to know your always in my mind and
heart
for my loving grandma who i will always love
who is now in heaven with God above

i miss him very much...

In memorial..

Grandma, N.P.
(14 august 1921 - 20 march 2009)

Grandma,
It is so hard to live the world without you...
your smile, your laugh, your courage, and your spirit will always
inspired us...
those we cherish will always live on in memories...
our prayer will always be with you...
for we believe that you are in heaven...
thank you for the love that we have shared together...