sometimes

it's cold, so cold
quite and still
i feel so alone
sadness has come to visit me

there's a storm in my heart
and my mind can't see the sun
happiness is fleeting
where has it all gone

my head is cloudy and heavy
tears running down my chin
ready for relief but the sorrow doesn't end

feeling empty and full
at the same time
so much i can't express
wish i could scream my disstress

i'm trying i really am
to hold it all together
just waiting and hoping
can't stay here and forever

don't leave me alone
not this long
i need your touch and kindness
to know i belong

hearing you voice comforts me
makes me feel that you do care
maybe you're feeling alone too
but i'm right here in front of you

we give, we receive
but balance has to come
not just me searching for you
and you have come and gone

the despair will grow smaller
the light will come eventually
but now it's just self pity

lonely

will remember?

Am I disappearing?
Am I being forgotten?
It seems that way.
I disappear behind my friends' personalities.
And people forget who I am.
They remember my friends
because I was the one who brought them there
but they don't remember me.
I am forgotten once again.
Can't they see it causes me pain?
Why must it be the one thing that I treasureis also the thing I am worst at?
Being noticed.
I slip behind the eyes of others
because they don't care to see.
I think they don't know the real me.
All they see is someone quiet
then poof!
There gone from their memories forever.
I want to be remembered,
will you remember me?

Note

A Note from Heaven

If I could write from heaven,
this is what I'd say,
Please don't miss me too much,
I'm with you throughout your day.
You may not see or hear me,
but if your quiet and still,
You may just feel my presence;
because, in Heaven, there is free will.
Don't worry for the day,
it will come and go as planned,
Enjoy each moment you are given,
keep worry from your hand.
Keep sorrow to a minimum;
For in Heaven if you could see,
You'd know I'm safe and happy,
I did not cease to be.
Moments in time are brief,
until we'll be together again,
as Eternity lasts forever,
our lives, they have no end.

no one

I'm gonna die
no one thinks its sad
no one will cry
every one will be glad

i'm gonna die
no one will miss me
no one will mind
every one will cheer with glee
to finally get rid of me

i'm gonna die
every one hates me
so i sigh
i want to die

Depressed

Stop Breathing

Tears of fear streaming
Words of sorrow screaming
Emotions live on killing
What’s the point in believing?
Life has no meaning
Dreams are only teasing
I can’t take all the deceiving
I want to stop breathing
There’s no point in living
I start crying
I try praying
Again, nobody’s listening
Now I’m straying
I turn and start running
Now I’m looking
For a way out of thinking
Please stop me from breathing
I’m no longer believing
I’m remembering
How no one was listening
Tears of fear and sorrow streaming
Emotions screaming
Words and thought killing
What’s the point in believing?
I want to stop breathing

Understanding of Love

Love is love,
No more
No less

Love is frail
Yet it is strong
Never fails

Love is gentle
So secure
That we can surrender

Love is complete
Everyone is in need
There is no need to compete

Love is not blind
It is balanced
Without crossing the line

Love is kind
It is meant to bind
It is mine...

Back

looking..

looking back on my life, and wondering if there's anything i would change
would i change anything at all or would it remain the same
i think we've all done things we regret
some we will never forget
i think we all could've done better if we tried
i know we all told little white lies
i wish i would have spent more time with the ones i love
some are now gone and are now in heaven with the one above
it's things like that, that put you back on track
because now you realize you can't have that back
as i look back i feel so bad
i should've treasured and took advantage of the time we had
i feel so alone and cold
sometimes i feel as if i might explode
i hate feeling this way inside
it makes me just wanna drop to my knees and cry
as i write this and fighting back the tears
treat everyone right and hold them near
so looking back on my life is there anything i would change
well i can tell you things wouldn't be the same